March 20,2019

The last few days I’ve been so miserable that writing was unthinkable. Even now it is difficult, but doable.

What’s going On?

  • One of my eyes has a bleed in it, so I have a blind spot right in the middle of my field of vision. It’s not too bad in that it’s only the size of someone’s face if they’re standing 2 ft away. It is however very disorienting and makes me want to keep my eyes closed. How did this happen? It’s a side effect of low plates and should resolve itself in about a month. I need to be careful with coughing and sneezing hard though.
  • I have a small pneumonia in my upper right lung that makes it hard to breathe, especially when I’m lying down.
  • I have a new kidney disease. not entirely sure the cause,,, I’m on steroids as of today to try and get that under control.
  • Today I also got a bone marrow biopsy!!! Results should be in in 48 hrs. This will hopefully tell us that all this treatment has been worth it.
This medieval contraption has helped my bum!!

The kids have started taekwondo. They are loving it! I’ve gotten to see one kiddo per day. I’m usually nervous before they come because my nausea is so bad, and I’m so miserable, but seeing them is such a delight!! I’ve also had the privilege to get a lot of time with my sister, husband and cousins. I feel so loved… I wish I could interact better with them. It’s such a treat to see them, but I feel sick talking too much.

Look at those fierce faces!

Please pray…

  • That all my misery go away- nausea, swelling, etc.
  • That the kidney disease be quickly resolved, as well as the pneumonia
  • For good sleep
  • For my blast cells to be near 0 when they look at the biopsy results!

Thank you!!!

19 thoughts

  1. No need to answer…praying for you through heart hurt and tears. So much pain. I’m sending not only compassion, prayers and hugs, but hoping to encourage you that God is there, even in the darkest of moments.


  2. Sending you an extra big, and sterile course, hug today Miss Heidi! Ummm your bum chair looks pretty neat. Should I get one if I have another baby?! And the boys are fierce in their taekwondo suits indeed. From the looks of those self defense positions, they’ll be ready to face lions in Cameroon someday when they go back! Wait, do they even have tigers in Cameroon? Praying tonight that your pain and nausea eases tonight. Your immense struggles and challenges, and how you overcome them, inch by inch, continues to inspire. Thank you again for sharing. Xo


    1. Ok so that last comment was supposed to read, “sending an extra big, and of course sterile, hug”. My brain apparently also interchanged tigers and lions as being the same animal so I’m not sure that anything I wrote made sense…
      you are a superior writer than me and you’re doing it half-blind in the middle of fighting cancer!! don’t worry though, I’m better at praying than writing so we got this… 😉

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  3. It’s just so much dear Heidi! I am praying for the miracle of healing and rest! May our ABBA Father will remind you in the midst that you are His, that He is yours and though outwardly we waste away, yet inwardly we are made new day by day.
    May I ask where you are located right now? Praying for your sweet kiddos too!


  4. A snippet of comic relief for you…maybe you could show it to one of the boys–whomever has the best chance of being the ping pong champion of the fam.

    Ahhh…I clicked on the link to make sure it work before I sent it to you and it has dirty language in it…I’m really striking out here! When it came on my Facebook feed I had the phone on silent–it’s funny, just don’t listen to the audio— it’s crude.


  5. Praying for you and for your quick healing, Heidi. I wish I could give you a big hug right now! Thank you for writing the update through all that you’re going through. You are so strong and an inspiration. LOVE from Courtney, Skyden and Ayden.


  6. Praying for you and your healing, Heidi. What an incredible and strong person you are. I wish I could give you a big hug right now. Sending you so much love!!!!


  7. Lord Jesus, thank you that our hope for healing is in you. If there are doctors or treatments that you would want to use to heal her illnesses I pray that you would guide Heidi to them. I ask for wisdom and discernment about which treatments to pursue.

    God, I thank you that Heidi belongs to you and that you are in control of everything that happens.

    Jesus, You told Your followers, “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe in Me as well. . . . Peace I leave with you; My peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives” (John 14:1, 27, NIV). Heidi needs Your peace. She needs “the peace of God, which transcends all understanding” to guard her heart and mind (Philippians 4:7, NIV). She needs peaceful sleep. I ask for peaceful thoughts and emotions to rule her days and nights. Amen

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  8. Christine W. put you on sbccv prayer chain, so lots of us will be praying mightily for you. Please know that you are greatly loved, by God and by us. We are with you in spirit. I only wish we were closer.


  9. Heidi, please know that there are a lot of people asking God to give you a full recovery. We love you. Stay strong there is hope in Him.


  10. One of my favorite verses is John 11:35 it is very easy to memorize ,even for me. “Jesus wept” I know Jesus loves you more than anything, and I’m sure he is weeping at your pain. May His loving presence be with you, May your treatment be successful and may you be returned to your family a healthy woman.


  11. We are praying and standing with you in unity and love. Your parents are dear friends of ours and we’ve been getting updates from them. Know that you are loved greatly and we are believing for a miraculous healing. Abrazos


  12. My heart hurts reading of your misery, praying for all of you, trusting God to bring you through all of this. Love you!


  13. Thank you again for keeping us posted. I love these posts into your heart and physical bombardments. I am praying for relief for you even in the smallest way. How is your appetite? Any goodies that we can send you?


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