Feb 22, 2019

Good news:

  1. Vyxeos had been SEAMLESSLY approved by our insurance (Tricare- Humana Military)! It is a very new drug, and therefore very expensive compared to the standard edition 7+3 chemo. My Dr. was ready for a battle, appeal etc. to try and get it approved for me, and it was NO issue. Thank you to all who prayed for this!!!
  2. I got to take a ballet class at Madison Ballet today. Not only that, but this past Tuesday I got to sub for some little peaches (Ballet 2 class here) and it was a joy… It’s so encouraging to be able to picture my life in Madison after treatment. They have been so welcoming to me and are hoping I can come teach in the fall.
I couldn’t have asked for a better environment, perfectly tailored to where I am now… High quality technique, laid back atmosphere, drop in class available every day, live piano…

After my first month of chemo, it was a rough blow that it didn’t work. We’d moved our life here in a dizzying flash, uprooted children, had family members put their lives on hold to come help, gone through side effects and discomfort, only to find out I was no close to transplant and cure… My sister sent me this passage… my hope is renewed. It doesn’t have to be solved:

Psalm 40: “I waited patiently for the Lord;
    he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
    out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
    and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth,
    a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear the Lord
    and put their trust in him.
Blessed is the one
    who trusts in the Lord,
who does not look to the proud,
    to those who turn aside to false gods.[b]
Many, Lord my God,
    are the wonders you have done,
    the things you planned for us.
None can compare with you;
    were I to speak and tell of your deeds,
    they would be too many to declare.
Sacrifice and offering you did not desire—
    but my ears you have opened[c]
    burnt offerings and sin offerings[d] you did not require.
Then I said, “Here I am, I have come—
    it is written about me in the scroll.[e]
I desire to do your will, my God;
    your law is within my heart.”
I proclaim your saving acts in the great assembly;
    I do not seal my lips, Lord,
    as you know.
10 I do not hide your righteousness in my heart;
    I speak of your faithfulness and your saving help.
I do not conceal your love and your faithfulness
    from the great assembly.
11 Do not withhold your mercy from me, Lord;
    may your love and faithfulness always protect me.
12 For troubles without number surround me;
    my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see.
They are more than the hairs of my head,
    and my heart fails within me.
13 Be pleased to save me, Lord;
    come quickly, Lord, to help me.
14 May all who want to take my life
    be put to shame and confusion;
may all who desire my ruin
    be turned back in disgrace.
15 May those who say to me, “Aha! Aha!”
    be appalled at their own shame.
16 But may all who seek you
    rejoice and be glad in you;
may those who long for your saving help always say,
    “The Lord is great!”
17 But as for me, I am poor and needy;
    may the Lord think of me.
You are my help and my deliverer;
    you are my God, do not delay.